i am no longer feeling like i have many emotions kept inside me... i now feel a lot different. i feel like i have totally no more feelings, i feel neither happy nor sad nor angry nor any other emotion i can think of... i guess emotions are like the colours of the rainbow, once u mix them all white emptiness juz like emotions where all u get is a white blank feeling in ur head and start spacing out. i no longer feel hatred nor liking to anyone, i no longer feel happy nor sad, no matter how seriously funny or depressing it is, i no longer feel vengeful, i no longer feel like killing the people i hate no longer feel like kicking them punching them strangling them anymore.... now my mind is juz empty no feelings wad so ever i no longer feel the need for me to do anything, my life has become so robotic juz following instructions without having any feelings abt whether its right or wrong or whether i like to do it or not or whether i want to do it or not... i dunno why i am even doing as i m told even tho i used to hate it...
all i know is that right now i am void of all emotions, i no longer think that there is a need to stay happy anymore. right now i dunno wad to do i am juz going to follow my usual routine everyday and juz follow instructions, i see a boring,dull life up ahead for me...